Kasia June 5th, 2008
It would appear that I have found the proverbial fly in the bus-riding ointment.
As TBS will happily tell anyone who will listen, I am quite fair-skinned. (She calls it “pasty”.)
Now, many years ago I decided that that - ok, we’ll call it pastiness - that that pastiness was actually OK with me. Not that I don’t love and appreciate a wide variety of skin tones, mind you, but after a few flirtations with various alterations that ranged from mini-goth to wanna-be-Barbie, basically I decided that God knew best what I should look like. Much as I might like, oh, let’s just randomly pick something…much as I might like to have a more ample bosom, God didn’t just push the wrong button and make me an A. He isn’t up in Heaven saying “Oops, I meant to give her double-D…” So it was up to me to learn to like the way I look, not think about all the ways I might change it if I had unlimited surgery and cosmetic funding. (”So we’ve just given me a movie-star body, enhanced my chin, and given me hair implants for a lower forehead…Let’s talk color contact lenses!”)
No. He made me the way He wanted me. And as in all other areas, it’s up to me to conform to His will, not the other way around. (Some days are easier than others.)
So yeah. Ultimately I decided that if He wanted me to be an olive-skinned beauty, He would have had me be born to olive-skinned Southern Europeans, not my Polish-German-British forebears. If He wanted me to have gorgeous green eyes, He might have had me be born to parents with a few more recessive genes. And so forth.
And thus it was that I stopped intentionally tanning. It probably helped that I don’t like being hot, so laying out in the sun or in a tanning bed is singularly unpleasant for me.
However, I am above all other things fundamentally lazy when it comes to self-care. Make-up? Um…I could…but I’d just have to wash it off tonight, and put it on again tomorrow…My hair? What about it? I combed it - isn’t that good enough? (What?! You want it BRUSHED TOO?!?) I do brush my teeth consistently, but that’s mostly because I hate dental work, even cleanings, more than any other medical care I have ever received in my life.
So it’s not surprising that, despite being repeatedly chastised by doctors, particularly dermatologists, and despite my general preference for my natural (pasty) skin tone, I have been really careless about wearing sunblock for the past…forever.
But I’m getting married in eight months (eeek!), and while ideally I would like my skin to be its normal (pasty) color, I realize that’s unlikely based on my prior habits. And that’s OK. I just don’t want any NEW tanning, especially of the farmer’s variety.
So I’ve been diligently putting on sunblock in the morning for the bus ride out. Silly me, I thought that if my face was still greasy from it when I left work in the afternoon, that it was still working. Apparently not. Because when I looked in the mirror a little while ago, I had the distinct impression that I’m tanner than I was. I even compared my face to the skin around my eyes, and I’m pretty sure it’s darker. Standing out in the Michigan June sunshine is apparently taking its toll. Nertz.
Hopefully those savings I’m realizing by taking the bus aren’t completely offset by additional sunblock purchases… :-p