Probably that you’re a lot like most people, honestly…that’s an area almost everybody needs to grow in.

First, I’m running on the assumption (perhaps overly generous, but hey) that the baby was probably stillborn. Based on what I know about him, I could readily see him not knowing what to do with a situation like that at the best of times, and with his girlfriend (presumably) bleeding all over the house…well, put it this way: I took a CPR class recently, and the teacher told us outright “You will not remember most of this in an emergency. Our goal is to drill the movements into your motor memory, so that you will hopefully bypass the panic and act automatically.” Things like “Call 911″ are supposed to be drilled into us for the same reason: when the poop really hits the fan, we panic and don’t think straight.

Second, IF the baby was born alive…well, I agree 100% that the human instinct is to recoil and write him off as a monster. It’s easier for me to fathom praying for him even so, because as I said, I’m privy to more information than most people. But it’s still hard. I can’t deny that.

It’s hard to pray for someone who would kill their child. Every fiber of my being wants to lash out, and call them monsters.

I have to pause, and try to calm down. It’s possible that she did have a miscarriage…or, more accurately, a stillbirth. Freaking out, not knowing what to do with the dead baby…they could have just panicked or acted in a dazed manner…I just don’t know.

I would have a very hard time praying for them if that baby was born alive. But that’s probably the most important time for me to pray for them. It’s easy to pray for friends, for family, for “good” people…it parallels forgiving people. What does it say about me if I can only forgive those who forgive me? What does it say about me if I can only pray for those who are “good”?